This past year wasn't very good for me, and I can't blame anyone but myself. I know I need God, but how much do I have to clean up my life before He'll have anything to do with me? He must be very angry at me.
The most important truth I can tell you is that God still loves you, in spite of the fact you’ve spent most of your life ignoring Him. No, God doesn’t love your sin—but He does love you, and He wants to forgive you and come into your life and change you.
And that’s why God won’t refuse to have anything to do with you until you’ve cleaned up your life! He knows how weak you are, and He welcomes you just as you are. If God didn’t love you, Jesus Christ never would have left Heaven’s glory and died on the cross for you. But He did—because He loves you! Let the truth of God’s Word sink deeply into your soul: “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life” (John 3:16).
Think of it this way. When you’re sick, do you have to wait until you’re almost well before you can see the doctor? Of course not. Your doctor will help you no matter how sick you are—and the same is true with Christ. Jesus said, “I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance” (Luke 5:32).
Don’t stay on a dead-end road; don’t reject Christ any longer. Instead, by faith turn to Him today, repenting of your sins and asking Him to forgive you and save you and come into your life. It’s the most important decision you will ever make.